growing pains

lawl, aren't i witty? not really. heh. okay i'll shut up about that now.

i spent [not wasted,] a few minutes reading over my friends blogs. it shows that our parents know we're really trying to grow up fast. we think they don't know what they're going through. but they were our age once weren't they? i guess it was easier times 20 years ago [at least for us with young parents..] there was no economy madness. there was no internet. but there was an opportunity that the internet can't give you. our parents could walk around their neighborhood knowing every kid on their block. but us? no, we can't do that. i can honestly say sometimes i'd rather be able to do that than go on the internet. but then i wouldn't have met so many of the people i talk to every day. back to the subject. our parents and us. now me, i can say i have a quite healthy relationship with my parents. i think it's only because they're friends, now atleast. my childhood [before this one, lol] was not as good as i had thought it was. my parents were always fighting over custody when i was young and i didn't understand why i always had to move from two different cities. i'm glad i dont move as much as my step siblings do. if i did, i wouldn't be as happy. i got the privilege of growing up with the people i've known since i was a baby. i'm glad. but, when i wasn't with my friends when i was young i kind of didn't want to be home. my dad had a girlfriend, my mom had a boyfriend and they both had kids. i didn't like the idea of a new family to adapt to. i never liked the feeling of having to go to a family where i was not known. where i was left out. i still feel like that today, but it's not as bad. i know better now. besides i would think my step siblings would feel the same way. at least on my mom's side of the family, since they've all grown up with me it's easy for me to talk to older people even my aunts and uncle's friends. i think all of us "kids" don't think anyone else understands us. we all say that we've gone through more than anyone has. but in fact, that is completely untrue. i think people around my age have all gone through the same things. separation, divorce, etc. but everyone is too close minded to get help or talk to anyone about it. everyone puts on their profiles and such "message me or talk to me to get to know me better." but most of the times people don't really open up if someone new tries to talk to you. usually you'd get creeped out and not reply. but most of the times it's someone who wants you to open up to them because they're probably going to do the same thing. well, that's my insight for today. [plus i have to take a shower.. so yeah]


in conclusion:
enjoy life. make the best of it. open up your hearts and minds to new people and new ideas. we need to stop trying to grow up so fast, we can't speed up time.

kbai.