WELL THENNN.

Why does it seem like whenever I'm happy, everyone around me is not?
Whenever everyone else is happy, I'm not?
It's so strange to me. It makes me feel like it's my responsibility to make the world around me happy. It is. I feel like I'm not accomplishing that, even though I try to do everything I can.
What does one do when they're the one who solves issues, yet they can not solve their own? It's a question that appears in my mind often. I can help everyone else solve their problems, but who do i go to with mine? I'm glad I do have someone to run to. My aunt. When all else fails, family is there for you at the end of the day. No matter how much you say you don't like them, no matter how much you fight, if you really need them, they're going to be there. Which is why i love my mother's side of the family. For once in my life, I don't feel lost. I don't want more. I don't need more. Just two months ago, I hated myself. I fell into his trap again. I hated myself so much. But then, he came and picked me up. If you're reading this, I'm pretty sure I can assume that you know who "he" is. He's different. As many know, my exes are all pretty.. conceited, obnoxious, and dumb. Well, he's not. All though we may seem like two entirely opposite people, the truth is we're pretty much the same. I honestly wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life with him. No matter who else came along, no matter how cute, smart, or whatever quality you have, I wouldn't leave. I don't think it's a one sided situation. As of now, at least. Even though one of my closest friends has liked him, I don't get why she would stop. He's the best[: Whatever, though. Besides the drama with Nathan I'm quite satisfied with my life. Our friendship officially ended today. It's settled. There's no more we can do, there's no way to fix anything. It's done, I've moved on.

Besides that, hands down, I love my life.