we're just all pulling through this together.

no matter what 'teen' age you are at, no matter where you live, no matter who you're friends with or what you like, we're all going through the same thing. even though sometimes you don't act like yourself or you don't even know who you really are and it upsets your friends, the truth is we're all going through this together. we're pulling through and getting stronger. we're pretty much preparing ourselves for later life. i've noticed all of my friends and are going through things many of our parents and relatives had not gone through until they were older. the expectations of us are a LOT higher than they were when our parents were in school. so much is wanted of us, there's so much pressure. it's a lot but obviously we're all strong enough to go through it. i would assume there is either a very high expectation or very low to no expectations. there's no medium here. i feel like i'm growing up too fast still. i wish i wasn't sometimes, but then sometimes i'm happy about it. when our parents were in middle school and early highschool i'm sure all they had to worry about was what time they were meeting their friends at the park or at someones house. but for us, it's what's due tommorow, i haven't finished that yet, this is so tough, i'm so sad, i hate myself, or why is this happening to me! our parents are so protective of us now and expect so much. i wish the standards were a little lower. any who, i feel like i know myself now. the past 3 years i had always known what type of personality i had, but not.. i guess who i really am on the inside. it's a little confusing. i'm loud and confident with things i know. but also, i've realized lately that i'm a passionate person with things i like, no LOVE to do. drum line has taught me what passion i have for music. i feel like i'd be committed to drum line no matter what i was on even though I LOVVVVVE BASS. i'm pretty sure some upper classmen will beat me for even being in battery at all, but it's okay. i will not lose love to a let down. it's not even just drumline. its singing and playing any other instrument. in the past year and months i've felt that my voice was weak. lately, i've been thinking. i know i can do anything if i have the passion for it. i know that for a fact now. [er, besides my c- in history. yikes .___.] but aside from that, i'm happy with who i am. i'm starting to get to see my true colors come out. it's like i'm watching myself well.. become myself if that makes any sense. i'm happy. it's been too long since i truly have been. [well added on to this self discovery he makes me pretty damn happy too LOL ron&joanna you know.]
gooodbye.