tired&uninspired

i'm starting to lose it again, my self reassurance.
as if i had so much already.
ronald says i've been distant from everyone, even michael.. i guess that's true..
but i've been finding myself lost in thought so much lately.
what have i even been thinking about?
i don't know -___-
i miss michael so much. i miss just being next to him. i feel like i've unintentionally made myself a little more distant from him, and for that i apologize.
i need to find a balance in my life.
i can't trust anyone anymore.
well, except maybe... 4 people.
they know who they are.
why do i not feel as open as i used to be?
or maybe that's what got me to this point?
i'm so confused about myself.
it's not an 'FMYLIFE' situation, it's just a time in which i need to find a balance to make everything work out.
nothing's going bad, but i have a feeling that the month of august is going to be a rough one.