Insights and the Bright Side

crying,hyperventilating, and sobbing are not the answers to my problems.
am i really doing the right thing? i can't even tell/feel anymore.
i'm numb, lost in thought and my surroundings.
i don't want to get up tommorow morning.
i'm so lost in what i'm doing, what i should do..
what i want to do, what everyone's telling me to do.
i really just.. don't want to be here.
i need a hug and for someone to tell me it'll all be okay.
that whatever happens will be for the best.
that the future's going to bright and i should look forward to it.
cause right now, i feel alone.
i know there are people that love me and only want the best for me..
but physically, alone.
shopping distracts me from my life.
hopefully that won't create an issue for me later in life.
michael, i love you. with all my heart, i really do.
this is just such a rough time for me and i don't know where i'm going.
i feel so dead.
if it's not okay, it's not the end.