the rest of you just falls right into place.

i didn't know what else to call this post because i couldn't think so i used the song that i'm listening to right now. :]
anyways, at this point in time, my heart and my mind disagree with eachother. my mind says i've moved on already and saying screwwww that guy, but my heart is clinging to him like static electricity. i've already moved on but not completely, if that makes any sense at all. the past 3 years have made me a very strong person. i feel like nothing could ever even phase me. but i'm pretty sure anything could. esp. with guys. i've been avoiding having a real boyfriend for almost a year now and it's actually been good for me because i'm doing hella GOOOOOOD in school, and i'm getting alot of practice for all my music stuff in. i feel empty though. my heart thinks he makes me feel whole, when it's really just numbness and nostalgia. daniel said i should probably get a boyfriend to forget about him and get over it, and i agree. but i don't want to make the same mistake and end up having to get over twice as much. GNAWWWWW MEAN!? =____= i'm usually not the wisest person in guys, but i now understand what i'm doing wrong and how i could fix it.

ANYWAYS, ron. his blog was alot better than mine xD so.. hm. it's weird how our talking cycle works. its like talk a week, don't talk 2 weeks. and i can't do that, getting to know him all over again every month. so we're just going to promise to never stop talking :] i think ron's different than many guys, but i'll just have to get to know him more to confirm that belief. [even though he thinks i lie to him ;P] who knows what could happen. [:









OKKKKKAY.
i'm going back to sleep LOL
bai.